Truth of the matter is I hate and I love this;
Didn't wanna do it, when I do it;
I've gotta do it justice;
Lost passion, veins became bloodless;
Remained grounded and retained substance;
Took a step back and gave it some judgement;
Thought I was stuck where I didn't wanna be;
I imagined things differently;
I had to adjust them;
Morals guide me, so respect my compass;
Like to think that I try my best, but if I can't make that work...,
An injustice;
A disservice,
Dereliction of duty,
Bottom line if I don't reach my potential it's a damn shame,
But in all honesty I'm the,
One at fault, and only have myself to blame;
Built a life that one can sustain,
Through passion and love,
Give a fuck about fame,
But remember the name that's Mensah,
Command respect when I enter. (x2)
Straight to the point,
Come like everybody raps, couldn't care for the noise,
While you do it for the clout;
This gave me a voice,
It's gone beyond choice, it's been my life,
No regrets, could've been that guy,
Lost count of all of those sleepless nights;
But back-a-them-days used to get so annoyed,
There was no progress, never felt so devoid,
So distant,
Bro I was socially distanced, long before COVID,
Coz like fuck I avoid,
No pain, no gain, no fucks come like I took 10 opioids,
Fuck all them opp boy tryna figure out the ploy,
Let's go for a joyride without the joy,
No pressure, I'm poised...,
Let's seperate the men from the boys,
1 nil ting, I don't drop points!
Lemme carry om teaching em.
Old school T like Ferdy & Iverson,
Old school guard like Teddy & Ledley,
Around the turn of the century,
Bruv I hated the ends, and back then it was deadly,
Kicking ball in the park wid a few other guys, and I...,
Said something on a sly,
Two twos, getting ducked down with a kitchen knife, was a young boy,
It's still tucked in the memory among other things...,
Enveloped in this pain and confusion,
Alongside that a bit of a suffering,
So faith I found comfort in,
Served in church on a Sunday,
And by Monday, I'm harbourings sins,
Sunday back again, repent and repeat,
To the Lord I beseech...
But the truth is I've always been a bit of a geek,
Liked to learn, had to learn a couple ways of the street though,
Couple man got in too deep...,
Certain man held a bit of heat,
Live and learn, no mistakes to repeat, so,
In a heated discussion...,
Couldn't call upon no older brothers or cousins,
Bruv I had to just done them, two-three up with the mandem,
But moretime I rolled out on my jack jones, so how it goes,
Little Kof' had to grow a backbone,
Walked with my chest when I'm on a backroad,
It could've been peak, but it was never that though,
See your block wouldn't touch that with bargepole,
But your headback, hit that wid a bargepole,
Yeah you can watch, but nah you can't roll,
Fire and smoke, turn man into charcoal...
Oh, oh,
Menzz is it really that though's what you're asking,
But I couldn't give a fuck what you're thinking,
Fitting in? Brudda what the fuck was I thinking,
These fake dons, I can't mix with,
Can't roll wid a bro that don't know himself,
Or still fronting for girls,
Was time to make a change, how long can a snowball last in hell?
My mental health, yeah I've sought help every year,
Year on year for the last 8 sutten years, I developed new fears,
More panic and tears,
Couldn't see through coming like living room sheers,
And for each one I conquered,
It weren't often,
I found drive, had to lift it up a couple gears,
Blood sweat and tears,
Over-advanced,
Have to enter upper tiers;
I'll punch out your teeth, then buy you vinnears,
So selfless,
It's a little bit savage, but selfless,
Felt helpless, always had hope to help me cope,
No hook no rope, climbing steeper slopes,
Can you relate? Well, maybe not but at least you know, I still...
Moving real, on a half price deal,
Offer ends Tuesday, come redeem your code,
Man of integrity ... but the game lacks class,
Like everyone's dargs but they all lack pedigree,
No ties, no lineage,
While I'm tryna leave legacy;
Time's so impatient, our one common enemy,
But the only evil that's necessary,
No matter who you are, it's hereditary,
Life on this earth, it come like one tenancy...,
Can't make a meal with no recipe,
So I just shoot on the spot like penalty same way I gotta take more risks,
9-5 life can't be the death of me,
Same way, it might as well be,
It's the only place where I've had consistency,
But I'm in it for the long haul,
Few rocky shores, but I'm still on-board,
Now I'm done with the forlorn attitude,
Everyday praising the most high for my life for another day,
Whilst showing gratitude,
When I could've been out shotting food,
But I'm on a whole another latitude,
To them protractor angles, you're a dunce and a damn fool,
If you think I'm gonna put myself around you,
Trailblaze my own lane, or avenue,
Just do it like 'Ye, trust me I'm bound2,
If you want you can call this a promise,
Thoughts of a prophet,
Bruv I've been doing this before I even thought of a profit or views,
More losses than dues,
Bruv I live life modest;
Living life modest…,
But the game's so toxic,
It's like every other day a soul's sold for a profit,
No morals or doctrine,
Whatever will line them mans pockets or wallets,
But I gotta admit it….can get like that, and I get that,
See your bag bro, better get that,
Don't lose your way cah the way home's far,
I'm too real for this,
So fuck it, I'm BARRED.
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